1780 Chapter 4: A Lifetime of good luck
I’ve always felt lucky. I was born into a wealthy family. My father doted on me and loved me even though my mother died when I was young.
But I don’t feel that I lack maternal love.
Because I still have Lu Man Man. I’ve always felt that she was born with a maternal aura.
I love her for being a good wife and mother.
Right, my name is Gu Xin.
Of course, I think that my luck is not only because I have a good family environment, but more importantly, I also have a sweet love that I am proud of.
My boyfriend, Zhai Yi.
The first son of the Zhai family, is not so dazzling handsome, but his character is very good. Although he does not like to talk, but he dotes on me to the extreme. I like to stick in his arms. I feel that I am still the little girl who has not grown up, i Could Act coquettishly in front of him.
Our wedding was set for the year when I was about to turn 23.
The accident happened a few days before Zhai Yi and I were about to get married. Zhai an suddenly called me out and said that she had something important to talk to me about.
I went out.
Zhai an actually confessed to me.
I knew that Zhai an liked me. Even for a period of time, I had a good impression of him.
But good impression and love were different.
My good impression of him was just the throbbing of puberty. I liked him only because I thought he was handsome during that period of time. I kissed him also because I had an instinctive yearning for beautiful things. I really did not love him.
So at that moment, I refused.
Our conversation did not go well. When Zhai an came to pull me, I pushed him out impatiently.
A big car came. He had a car accident.
In front of me, I watched the car accident happen.
I was really scared.
I did not think of killing him. Even if I refused, I did not think of ending his life.
The ambulance took him to the hospital.
I followed him to the hospital.
The Doctor said that he was blind.
Everything was fine on his body, but his eyes could not be seen. He said that it was because the blood clot had compressed his nerves and he could not undergo surgery.
I really blamed myself. I even wanted to take care of him until he regained his sight. He was Zhai Yi’s younger brother. He was also my childhood sweetheart. I could take care of him, but I really did not expect that.., he would be so despicable and despicable to let me marry him.
Everyone forced me to marry him. Even my father, who doted on me and loved me, said that he wanted me to marry Zhai an because I had wronged him.
I knew that it was my fault, but I did not do it on purpose.
Why should I use the happiness of my life to exchange for it? Why? !
That night in the hospital, after I was cornered by them, I pulled Zhai Yi away.
I would not compromise.
It was useless to say anything.
Zhai Yi felt sorry for me and comforted me the whole night.
Then, that night, we went to bed.
Initially, I had persisted for so many years and insisted on getting married before sleeping together. That night, I took the initiative and gave myself to Zhai Yi in advance.
I thought that even if I was forced to marry Zhai an in the end, I would not give him my complete self.
In the end, I really married Zhai An.
Zhai Yi let go and said that he did not want to make me sad and that he did not want me to go to jail.
In fact, I was really not afraid of going to jail. I would rather go to jail for two or three years because of negligence. I did not want to marry Zhai an!
However, Zhai Yi compromised.
He compromised.
Zhai an and I really got married.
After we got married, we lived alone together.
His eyes were not convenient, so there were two more servants in the house.
After we got married, we did not share the same room. I did not even like him. He did not force me.
We lived under the same roof. I hated him.
I did not expect that after having sex with Zhai Yi that night, I would actually get pregnant.
At that time, my feelings were very complicated.
There were mixed feelings.
I even had the pleasure of revenge.
I said to Zhai an, “Zhai an, I’m pregnant.”
I thought that I would never forget Zhai an’s expression at that time.
He could not see anything. He could only find my location through the sound.
His expressionless eyes looked straight at me.
I knew that he could not see anything. However, at that moment, I felt a little… guilty when he looked at me with his pale eyes.
He said, “Yes.”
He said, “Yes.”Then, he did not have any emotions and did not say another word.
He knew that this child was not his.
We did not even share a room together.
I even wondered if he really liked me. If he liked someone, he should not have such a reaction when he knew that this woman was pregnant with another man’s child.
But if he does not love me, why did he force me to marry him.
I did not want to understand Zhai an nor think about his thoughts. I went to see Zhai Yi with my joy.
I told him that we had a child and I decided to have it.
At that time, I was only 23 years old and not yet full.
I never thought that I would become a mother so early. Because it was Zhai Yi’s child, I was willing to have it.
Zhai Yi’s reaction made me a little… not feel good.
I thought that he would be excited, should hug me around three times, he just forced a smile, saying that I am wronged.
I am not wronged.
I am very happy.
I thought that he just does not know how to express, I deeply ingrained feeling that he is happy.
After carrying the child.
I still can not change my habit of groping, I still can not be like other pregnant women, behave.
So, not long after two months, the baby naturally miscarried.
At that time, blood was dripping from the bottom of my thigh. I was so scared that I cried and shouted loudly in the toilet.
Zhai an groped her way in from the outside and used brute force to push open the toilet door. She groped her way to me and picked me up from the ground. That was the first time I felt that a man’s embrace would be so hard and strong.
Even though Zhai an looked very thin and weak.
He carried me and fumbled his way out of the living room.
He hurriedly instructed the servants to call the emergency number and sent me to the hospital.
When I arrived at the hospital, the Doctor said that the child could not be saved and performed an abortion on me.
At that time, I cried my heart out.
Zhai an had been accompanying me in the hospital. She did not speak. She quietly listened to my crying. She cried without any form of image.
Not long after, Zhai Yi rushed over in a hurry.
I pounced into Zhai Yi’s embrace. “I wasn’t able to protect our child. I was too careless.”
Zhai Yi hugged me tightly.
He said, “I’m sorry, Xiao Xin. I’ve made you suffer.”
Clearly, I was the one who should say sorry.
I hugged him tightly and did not want to let go for a moment.
At that moment, I saw Zhai an get up and leave the ward.
He clearly could not see anything, but he still got up and groped his way out of the ward.
At that time, when I looked at his back view, I actually felt a stabbing pain in my heart for a second. I did not know why I had such an illusion, but in the next second, I thought that if he had not forced me to marry him.., if he had not forcefully inserted himself into the world of Zhai Yi and me, I would not have experienced so many tragedies.
Therefore, I still hated him.
After I was discharged from the hospital, I still returned to Zhai An’s residence. After all, we were still engaged.
However, we talked even less. If I did not open my mouth, Zhai an would definitely not say a word.
The two of us lived under the same roof, living as strangers.
After the small month, I began to frequent the nightclub.
In fact, the miscarriage brought a certain shadow to me. I always thought that the baby was not saved because I was too active, because I was too careless, so I needed to use alcohol to have some revelry to let myself forget the unhappy things. My character is more heartless, after a period of time will be better.
After recuperating, I had plans to get pregnant again.
I did not keep the first child.
I will definitely be careful with the second child.
I told Zhai Yi my thoughts.
However, Zhai Yi refused. He said that he did not want his child to call others a father. He said that in a few years, Zhai an’s eyes will be better. After Zhai An’s eyes are better, we can be together again.
Zhai Yi actually did not like Zhai an.
I do not know why he would be so protective of Zhai an on this matter.
At that moment, I actually felt a little cold in my heart.
I always thought that in Zhai Yi’s world, I was more important than anyone else.
Those so-called responsibilities, those so-called mature rationality, I thought that I could completely disregard them in the face of love.
As expected, I was too childish.
Thinking about it, for a very long time, I was not very happy in my life!
I could not be with Zhai Yi, could not live with Zhai an, and suppressed myself as if only alcohol could save me.
I spent a lot of time in the nightclub.
I always came home drunk.
Once, I fell on the floor as soon as I entered the house. I was so drunk that I did not know how I came back.
That night, Zhai an took care of me for the whole night. I vomited, I cried, I vented all kinds of emotions. I really felt that all the good luck in my life had been ruined by Zhai an, the bad luck in my life started from the moment I met Zhai an!
When I woke up the next morning, Zhai an and I were sleeping on the same bed.
Actually, we did not do anything that night. I actually knew that he took care of me for an entire night and was exhausted before he fell asleep on my bed. However, when I woke up, I rejected him like crazy, i pushed him directly off the bed. I made a big fuss as if I was sullied by him.
That was the first time I saw Zhai an say in a loud and angry voice, “Gu Xin, I didn’t Touch You!”
“I know!”I roared. “But I can’t bear to open my eyes and see you lying on my bed. This position belongs to Zhai Yi!”
Zhai an looked at me for a long time.
In fact, he could not see anything, but his eyes were fixed on me.
He said, “I’m sorry.”
I watched him turn around and leave.
The moment he left, I saw the marks on his body that I had scratched and bitten last night. He suddenly cried like crazy.
I really did not know what I was crying about. I really did not know why, the moment I saw Zhai an leave, I suddenly felt very uncomfortable. I suddenly felt that I was unforgivable!
It was clearly him. It was clearly him who deliberately climbed into my bed!
He was a bad person.
He destroyed my happiness.
After I got drunk that time, I restrained myself. I did not want to suppress myself like a madman and live on. My personality was rather neurotic. Although I was not happy with my marriage with Zhai an, I felt that I could not torture myself!
Therefore, I began to live a life that I felt comfortable with.
I would often travel and travel around the world. Occasionally, when Zhai Yi was not too busy, I would have dinner with him and date him. We just did not do things that involved marital infidelity.
I had been waiting.
Quietly waiting.
Waiting for Zhai an to one day regain her sight.
Waiting for Zhai an to take the initiative one day to say that they were getting a divorce.
The first real big quarrel between Zhai an and I after we got married was when I discovered that Zhai an could go abroad for surgery and he refused to go. That was when Zhai Yi accidentally let it slip and told me. I was really angry at that time, i went to Zhai an’s attending physician and asked about Zhai an’s condition. The attending physician told me that Zhai an could go abroad for surgery in her current condition. There were similar cases overseas, and the surgery was very successful. The risk factor would not be too high.
When I got the Doctor’s report, it was the first time I asked Zhai an openly, “Do you want us to torture each other like this for the rest of our lives? Do you want to shackle me in this way for the rest of my life? ! Zhai an, don’t you think that you are really despicable? !”
Zhai an was very quiet.
She was always this quiet.
I placed the surgery list in front of Zhai an and said, “It’s alright if you can’t see it. I will tell you now. I have already used your identity as your wife to talk to your attending physician in Wen City. I will send you overseas for surgery immediately. I will send you to the hospital there to have a checkup immediately. “Zhai an, I’ll go with you. If the surgery fails, I’ll die with you. If the surgery succeeds, we’ll part ways!”
Zhai an never lost her temper. At least, she would not expose her emotions to anyone so obviously. I even saw the veins on his forehead. He asked me fiercely, “Is death more difficult for you to accept than being with me?”
“Yes.”I did not hesitate. “I hate being forced to do it the most in my life. Zhai an, you don’t know how much I hate you!”
Zhai an smiled.
That self-deprecating and somewhat humble smile. He said, “Gu Xin, it seems that I have made a mistake.”
I did not know what he meant by that.
At that time, I only wanted him to go for the surgery. It was a risky but highly successful surgery.
But he still refused.
He said, “My life is very important, so I don’t want to take risks easily. I Won’t do this surgery.”
“Zhai An, do you really want me to hate you for the rest of my life?”I gritted my teeth and asked him.
“You can hate me,”he said.
After saying that, he directly returned to his room.
I was really angry. I was so angry that I smashed everything in the house that could be smashed!
The servants were frightened by my bad temper, but no one stopped me!
I thought that Zhai an and I would fight to the end. I did not expect Zhai an to initiate a divorce.
He prepared the divorce agreement and asked me to sign it.
I looked at the divorce agreement and was a little confused at that moment.
Happiness came too suddenly. Suddenly, I was at a loss.
He signed his name first.
The pen was strong and forceful.
I gritted my teeth and signed my name.
It was a very simple divorce, because it did not involve the division of property, the divorce was very smooth.
After the divorce, I moved out of Zhai An’s house.
I found another place to live, I decided to start over with Zhai Yi.
Although i married Zhai Yi, but we never shared a room, at least, my body for Zhai Yi, is still clean.
So I thought it was natural for us to start over.
We did start over, but Zhai Yi still did not touch me.
No matter how active I was, he did not touch me. He said that he would wait until after marriage.
However, he never mentioned the matter of marriage.
He was just very busy doing his work. He worked overtime every day and rarely had time to accompany me.
I always convinced myself to understand him, understand his life, understand everything about him.
I chose to be a good girlfriend and learned to live with him when he needed it and when he didn’t.
Because I was bored, I often went to nightclubs.
Once when I was drunk, I inexplicably went to Zhai An’s residence.
Zhai an had regained her sight.
Soon after our divorce, I heard that she could see it.
When I knew about this, I actually wanted to ask him if he had refused the surgery because he could already see it.
At the time of Zhai an’s car accident, I heard the doctor say that Zhai an’s blood clot might dissipate after a long time and he could see it without surgery.
However, I did not have the courage to ask him.
I had always thought that the reason for our divorce was because of the surgery.
Now that we were separated, why bother with these unpleasant things.
Of course, I did not expect that one day, after I was drunk, I would appear here for no reason.
When I entered the elevator and pushed open the door of Zhai An’s house, Zhai an was watching TV in the living room. The moment she saw me, she should have been a little surprised.
I was also a little surprised when I saw Zhai an at that moment.
The two of them looked at each other for a long time.
I did not know how I sobered up. When I came back to my senses, Zhai an said to send me away.
There was always a very distant distance between us.
Zhai an would not take the initiative to come close to me. Even if I had fallen over when I walked, he would not take the initiative to help me. He would just follow a short distance behind me.
We went to the garage together.
He opened the door for me and I sat in it.
He went back to the driver’s seat and saw that I wasn’t wearing my seatbelt. He bent down and helped me to fasten it so that it wouldn’t touch my body.
For some reason, I felt like I was despised by him.
He drove neither fast nor slow. He didn’t say a word to me while driving.
When he reached my new house, he opened the car door for me.
This was his upbringing.
If it were me, I would never speak to my so-called ex-wife again.
I got out of the car.
I got out of the car a little unsteadily.
He said, “Gu Xin, I’m going abroad.”
I admit, at that moment, my heart really skipped a few beats.
I didn’t even react.
But he probably thought that I was drunk.
“Take care,”he said. “I wish you and Zhai Yi Happiness. When you get married, if you don’t mind, I will come back to attend the wedding.”
Who Wants you to attend!
Don’t flatter yourself.
I left unsteadily without replying to him.
He didn’t say anything more.
He probably thought that I was very drunk!
When I looked back again, his car was already far away.
It was pretty good.
In the future, they would never see each other again.
After Zhai an left, not long after, Zhai Yi suddenly said that he was getting married.
He suddenly said that he was getting married.
Previously, it was clear that he did not mention anything.
I readily agreed because I felt that I loved Zhai Yi.
I always felt that it was a very happy thing for a person to be able to marry the person he liked in his lifetime. Therefore, I happily walked into the hall with Zhai Yi. I did not invite Zhai An, and I did not ask Zhai Yi to invite Zhai an, i did not want him to come to my wedding. I did not want him to come.
I would just let Zhai an live and die abroad.
At most, Zhai an could be seen occasionally in the foreign news media. They said that he was the greatest photographer in northern Xia Kingdom and was young and promising.
After the marriage.
Apart from working at the Zhai’s group, Zhai Yi also started working at the GU’s group.
He said that as his son-in-law, it was natural for him to share my father’s hard work. Therefore, he took the initiative to offer to work at the GU’s group.
I was very grateful that he could think of so many things.
He even asked my father to put down all the work at the GU’s and go out for a walk to relax and enjoy his old age. He asked my father to give the Gu’s to Zhai Yi.
My father could not resist my persuasion and really gave the GU’s to Zhai Yi.
However, he did not expect that Zhai Yi’s evil intentions directly took the Gu’s into his own hands.
He said, “We are a family. In my father’s hands and in his hands, we are the same.”.
Different.
At least in my father’s eyes, it was different. I asked Zhai Yi to return the GU’s business to my father. I did not want my father to be sad. I thought that Zhai Yi would listen to my advice. I had always believed that Zhai Yi loved me very much, he was only obsessed with the pursuit of benefits. I really did not expect that Zhai Yi would just keep pushing and pushing. He kept saying that we are a family.
How could we be a family? !
The Gu family was reorganized by the Zhai family and started to be named as the property of the Zhai family.
The once glorious gu family was wiped out in history.
My father chose to commit suicide.
That day, the gold-plated words of the Gu family group were taken down. That day, the name of the Zhai family group was put up.
My father jumped down from the building.
When I went to see his body, it was a tragic sight.
Zhai Yi accompanied me. He probably did not expect such a tragedy to happen.
When I asked Zhai Yi, I said, “Is this the family you were talking about?”
He kept quiet.
When I returned home, I received an email from my father.
The date was written last night. After he jumped down from the building, he sent it to me regularly.
He said.., “Xiao Xin, when you received this email, Dad had already left. “I chose to leave not because I wanted to blame you, but because the Gu family’s family business had been destroyed by Dad. Dad felt that he had let down his ancestors, and using this method to end his life gave me the courage to meet our ancestors.
Xiao Xin.
Dad doesn’t blame you.
Don’t blame yourself.
Just Live Well and be happy.
As for Zhai Yi.
Dad knows that he loves you. If you follow him for the rest of your life, he won’t treat you unfairly. Especially after what happened to dad, he should treat you better. If you still love him.., just Live Well with him for the rest of your life. Dad said that dad didn’t choose this path because he wanted to take revenge on anyone. It was just that dad felt that this was his only choice and that he wouldn’t be so sad.
“Xiao Xin, live well. Dad loves you.”
I didn’t know how I finished reading this short email.
I just felt that my tears kept falling like crazy. They were endless!
During that time, I was really sad.
I had never felt so sad before.
Lu Man Man would come to accompany me, but she was actually very busy.
After she married into the Wen family, she wasn’t as happy as she imagined.
And I did not want to die.
I also wanted to live well as my father said.
I always thought that my father would be happier if I lived.
His death was not to force me to die.
No matter how much I wanted to die, I always thought that my father wanted me to live.
When I really had the thought of suicide, when I really felt that there was nothing to live for, I accidentally heard the conversation between Zhai Yi and Zhai Yi’s father.
It was a month after my father died.
During that time, Zhai Yi was very good to me. He was almost inseparable from me.
We returned to the Zhai family’s villa.
He took me back with him.
After dinner, Zhai Yi and his father went to the study room.
I was bored by myself.
My relationship with Wen Qing was not good.
The two of US sat in the living room and only knew how to hurl insults at each other. I did not want to quarrel with her.
I got up and went upstairs to tell Zhai Yi to leave early. In other words, I wanted to tell Zhai Yi that I would be leaving first.
As soon as I reached the door, I heard the conversation between Zhai Yi and her father.
If it was not for the mention of my father’s name, I would not eavesdrop. I was also highly educated and would not do such sneaky things.
Because of my father’s name, I stood at the door and heard Zhai Yi’s father say, “Gu Zhengying’s death has indeed made me feel something that I can’t describe. However, the deceased has passed away. None of us expected such an outcome. Originally, we were just looking for money.”
Zhai Yi did not speak and appeared to be a little silent.
“You and Gu Xin have a good life. You can also make up for Gu Zhengying’s death. No matter what, we are old friends. It’s our duty to take care of her daughter.”
“Okay.”Zhai Yi nodded in agreement.
“I’ll get a lawyer to transfer the shares to you in person tomorrow,”Zhai Hong said, “We agreed at the beginning that I would give you 8% of the shares after you bought the GU group. Adding the 20% you promised Zhai an and Gu Xin to get married and the 5% that you aborted Gu Xin’s child, you have a total of 33% . You’re only slightly behind me. “Since dad thinks so highly of you, the Zhai family will naturally be yours in the future.”
“Thank you, Dad.”
“Thinking about it, it must have been Dad’s fault for not thinking things through. He actually agreed to let Zhai an and Gu Xin get married. If I had known that their marriage would end up like this, I wouldn’t have agreed.”. It was also your brother Zhai An’s fault for being so stubborn. When he heard that we had used such an extreme method to acquire GU enterprise in three years and insisted on marrying Gu Xin, he thought that he could stop something. However, it was also good that he had tried it. He would not miss it even if he learned a lesson. It’s just that we have delayed our plans for more than a year. It’s a waste of time,”Zhai Hong sighed, “Alright, let’s not talk about anything else. Anyway, Zhai an did not put her mind on the family business. From now on, it’s all up to you.”
“I will work hard. Dad, don’t worry.”
“Then, bring Gu Xin back as soon as possible. At this juncture, console her.”
“Okay.”
Zhai Yi got up and left.
Perhaps he did not expect to see me standing at the door when he opened the door.
At that moment, he suddenly panicked.
At that moment, I was damn calm.
When the truth was in front of me, I only felt that I was stupid. I was so stupid that I did not have the right to lose my temper to anyone.
Zhai Yi did not know how to explain it to me. After bringing me home, he kept saying that no matter what he did, he still loved me and loved me very much.
At that moment, I suddenly did not know what love was.
In the end, Zhai Yi could not be with me 24 hours a day.
In the end, I chose to commit suicide.
I did not do it for revenge.
I just felt that I was stupid enough to not be suitable to live in this world.
I said, what was wrong with Zhai an? She endured for so many years and insisted on confessing her love to me on the eve of my marriage. Then, she insisted on using blindness to marry me.
So it was just to save my tragedy.
And I was so stupid to choose to brush past her.
So stupid to bring a wolf into the house.
I was not too sad when I died.
But I thought that Lu man would be very sad.
I sent her a text message. I said, “I have nothing to live for. I just want to say sorry to Zhai An.”.
I really wanted to say sorry to Zhai an, but I felt that I should not be able to muster up the courage.
I chose to jump off a building.
I followed my father out of this world where he jumped.
I sat on the roof for a long time.
The wind was strong and blew my cheeks.
I liked to play with my phone.
I couldn’t seem to change this habit before I died.
I started to look through my phone’s address book from beginning to end. I just wanted to recall all the people I had experienced in this life..
At that moment, I suddenly saw Zhai An’s name.
I did not expect his name to be in my contact list.
For a moment, I thought that I had deleted it.
I also did not expect that I would really call him at the last moment of my life.
“Hello.”A female voice came from the other side. She spoke in the language of northern Xia Kingdom.
I paused for a moment.
Before I could speak, the other side hurriedly said, “If you are looking for teacher Zhai, please wait for a few minutes. He is currently filming a set of magazines and can’t leave. I’m sorry.”
After she finished speaking, there was no more sound.
But miraculously, she did not hang up.
I looked at the minutes of our conversation, which were jumping on the screen second by second.
I did not know how much time had passed.
I thought that it was about time!
I said to the phone that did not hang up, “Zhai An, I love you.”
There was no response.
Because, just because the other party forgot to press the hang up button, there was actually no one on the other end of the phone.
The phone finally slipped out of my hand.
I closed my eyes and jumped down at the last moment, only then did I understand.
It turned out that the good fortune I had accumulated in my life was not ruined by Zhai an, but passed by her.