Chapter 539 Push him away
Morning calmly passes by as Yue Ling and Lu Tian returned to their home in the afternoon to be with Inu.
Due to the weather being warmer than the past few days, the couple finished their lunch and decided to enjoy their afternoon in the back courtyard.
Lu Tian had cleaned up and changed into comfortable clothes. He was now wearing a black long sleeve shirt with gray marled shorts. Every so often, Inu, who was running around would run back to him and give the aloof man a ball to play fetch with him.
Yue Ling sat on an outdoor couch set up on the patio deck as she watched the human and furball. She had also change after washing herself. She was now wearing a simple long sleeve midi dress made of ribbed material in a shade of beige.
As she continue to gaze at Lu Tian, she could see a smile curl on his lip from time to time because of Inu. She couldn't help but sigh inside. She can see why so many women are infatuated by him.
If you were to take away his usual cold and aloof demeanor, everything about him is the perfect image of every woman's dream man. Of course, he is shameless at times, but can be a romantic person too.
He has always been the one to tell her that he is the luckiest man to have met her, but in truth, it is the other way around. She is the luckiest woman to have met him.
However… once he finds out that she cannot get pregnant anymore, will those words still remain?
How will she break the news to him and how will he react?
Will he become disappointed and leave her?
"What's wrong? Are you not feeling well?"
His deep voice trails into her ears and she blinked her eyes. She had been so lost in her thoughts that she didn't even realize when Lu Tian had appeared in front of her.
Not only him, even Inu was poking out his adorable head from behind the man. The little guy's expression was as if saying, 'Favorite human, are you okay? What's wrong?'
Staring at the big and little figures, a soft smile curls on Yue Ling's lip. She lightly shook her head and answers.
"It's nothing and I'm alright."
Lu Tian walks over to her and sits down on the space next to her. Despite her answer, he was still worried because he knows that she is really good at hiding her feelings.
Stretching a hand towards her, he touch her forehead to make sure she is really fine.
Feeling his slightly cold palm on her head, Yue Ling sighs inside again. She lifts her hand and held his. Lowering it, she place it on her lap without letting go.
She lowers her head to look at his larger hand and gently trace the callouses on his palm.
Although she has not prepared herself to tell him, she knows that she cannot keep this a secret forever. He, more than anyone else has every right to know.
After hearing, if he decides to leave, she will understand. Even if she is crushed by this decision, it is better to part ways while they are not yet married.
Coming to a decision, she inhaled sharply and looks up at him with a smile.
However, the moment their eyes met, she felt a tinge of pain stab her in the heart. A part of her does not want to tell him, but…
"Tian, I have something I need to tell you."
She stares deeply into his eyes and her smile grew smaller, but it was not completely gone. Now it was a smile that held so many unexplainable feelings.
"I… I cannot have a baby anymore."
Lu Tian's expression did not once change. He only stares down at her as he thought about her words.
'I cannot have a baby anymore.'
He had overheard the conversation between her and Grandfather Ji, but to hear her personally say it to him, he can hear the pain in her voice. Even he felt like her pain was shot into him.
Any person, be it a woman or man would feel devastated to learn they are infertile. Especially when they just lost a child.
This time, it was him who slowly lowers his head, and gaze down deeply at her smaller hand within his. He gently gave her a squeeze and looks back to her as his other hand raise and caress her cheek.
An exceedingly small smile curls on his lip, but one can see the sadness in his eyes. He knows that she must have been debating on how to tell him or whether she should keep it to herself.
However, he is happy. Not because she cannot get pregnant, but because she decided to tell him instead of holding it in and facing it alone.
His thumb gently stroke her cheek and he leans towards her. Placing a gently kiss on her forehead, he moves back a little to look at her.
"I heard by chance."
As he spoke those four words, Yue Ling's eyes shook with her heart. He already knew? How? When?
"Who… Did yeye tell you?"
She couldn't help but asks. The only people who knew about this was her grandfather and the doctors at the clinic she visited. So how did he know?
Lu Tian sighs inside when he saw the pain and shock in her eyes. He moves his hand from her cheek and wrap it around her as he pulls her into his chest.
"Grandfather Ji did not tell me. I overheard when you were telling him. I heard everything."
Suddenly being his arms, Yue Ling didn't know what to say, but when she heard his words that traveled inside her life sharp swords, her lower lip began to tremble.
Knowing that he knows already, she felt a suffocating feeling rise inside her body that made her want to cry.
However, forcing her tears to not fall, she moves her hands and press her palms against his chest. She tries to push him away. If she continues to stay within his arms, she will not be able to hold herself back.
"Tian, I am so sorry. I understand if you don't want to be with me anymore. I'll have all my belongings out of here as soon as possible."
Now that it has come to this, she cannot ask him to stay with her out of sympathy. His sympathy is the last thing she would ever want.
"I really mean it. I won't ask you to stay. I don't want you to feel trap with me when I cannot give you a child."
She choke out her words as she is barely able to contain her tears. However, no matter how much she tries to free herself from his arms, the tighter he held onto her.
Lu Tian's heart ached into millions of pieces. He knows how much pain she in, especially from the way she is trying to push him away.
Hover, his arms tightens around her, and he press his forehead on her shoulder.
"Why are you apologizing when you haven't done anything wrong?"
He slowly loosens his arms and lets her go, only to hold her cheeks with his palms. Once he made sure she was looking right at him, he looks at her sternly. However, the look in his eyes were as if telling her to not push him away.
"I want to feel trap by you. I don't care if you can't give me a child. I just want to be with you. You're all I want."
He leans towards her and press his forehead against hers. Both his palms lets go of her cheeks and he holds onto her now trembling hands.
"Please don't push me away. I'm not going anywhere. Even if you want me to go, I will always come back because..."
He pause in his sentence and moves back to look at her. He pinch her chin to make her look at him so that she does not look anywhere else but him.
"Han Yue Ling, you are my fate. Always have and always will be."
He leans closer to her and place a small kiss on her lip before wrapping his arms around her again. This time, he made sure to keep her in his embrace.
Even if she protested against him, he would not let her go.