Chapter 1726 - 1726 Let Down Her Mother’s Love For Her
1726 Let Down Her Mother’s Love For Her
Ji’er looked at him with slight surprise when she heard this.
There was a sorrowful look on Lil Lin’s face as he leaned against the tree.
“Ever since I could remember, I have been begging on the streets with my mother. We relied a lot on each other and begged for a living. After that, my mother got seriously ill and we had no money to see a physician. I went begging everywhere but however much I managed to get was not enough to get her a physician. In the end, I could only watch as my mother passed…” At this point, his head lowered and huge drops of tears fell from his eyes to the ground.
Ji’er was moved after listening to him and could not help but hug him in her arms when she saw how sad the boy was when he cried.
She was not someone who knew how to talk and had no idea how to comfort another person. This was the only way she knew how to give him consolation.
Lil Lin wiped away his tears hard while in her arms. When he lifted his head, the sorrow had disappeared from his face, but the sadness in his eyes betrayed his real emotions.
“Young Master, if you don’t go ahead and do the thing you could have done, it would end up being the greatest regret in your life. I was incapable back then and could only watch as my mother died of illness. This has been my greatest regret. I hate myself for not working hard enough. If I could earn more money, my mother might not have died.”
Ji’er felt sad for him as she said, “How can you blame yourself? You’re still so young then.” Lil Lin was only twelve right now, and was even younger a few years ago. What could he do when faced with his seriously ill mother? “At least you’ve tried your best.”
Lil Lin suddenly burst out crying. “It’s not like that, Young Master. Back then, I had an opportunity at saving my mother. A rich, young man had asked me to crawl between his legs. If I did that, he would give me one tael of silver, but I refused it no matter what. If I hadn’t been so stubborn and did what he asked me to, my mother would have the money to see a physician and she wouldn’t have died…”
Ji’er was angry and sad to hear this. She could not imagine how it looked like for a boy at such a sensitive age to be humiliated this way.
He had to get money for his mother to be cured while being humiliated by others.
“Lil Lin, you didn’t do anything wrong. Even if you did get the money and your mother was saved, she would blame herself if she found out about it. Besides, even if you did crawl between his legs, that rich, young man might not necessarily have given you the silver. He might force you to do something even worse because all he wants is to make a fool out of you.”
Lil Lin sobbed profusely.
It made Ji’er sad to see the boy’s face covered in tears and she took out her handkerchief to wipe his face.
He must have suppressed those emotions since his mother’s death and was not able to release his emotions for many years. When he was allowed to do so now, he could not stop crying.
His mother’s death from an illness, being homeless, going hungry, and wandering about, all of these were torture and destruction to a young boy.
Lil Tian and Lil Mu were red in the eyes as well. They stayed silent. It could be because Lil Lin’s words had touched a place in their hearts where they had a story they could not bear to tell as well.
It took a long time for Lil Lin to finally pull himself together. He picked up his basket again and prepared to pick mushrooms.
As he walked away, he suddenly turned back to say to Ji’er, “Young Master, there are many things that could have been done but might be prevented by fear. This might one day end up being your biggest regret, especially when it involves the people closest to you.”
Ji’er was astounded as she looked at the tough, young boy.
Lil Lin’s words stumped her slightly.
There was suddenly a breakthrough in this situation that had troubled her for such a long time.
It was as Lil Lin had said, what did it matter even if her mother was pretending to be ill? All her mother wanted was for her to go home…
Besides, what if her mother was really ill and she refused to return just because of her reservations? It might end up being her life’s regret and she would have let down her mother’s love for her.