Chapter 905 - 905 Confession
905 Confession
When she met Jiang Zhennan’s deep and dark eyes, which were filled with some kind of persistent feelings, Lin yuelan subconsciously felt that she should stop him from saying what he was about to say, but a certain voice was preventing her from doing so.
In the midst of his hesitation, Jiang Zhennan’s usually cold face was replaced with gentleness, restraint, and seriousness. He said, “Miss Yue ‘Er, I don’t want to lie to you, and I don’t want to lie to myself either. I feel that I … I’ve fallen deeply in love with you!”
As soon as he finished speaking, the whole world fell silent.
His handsome face was cold and sharp, and he looked calm as usual.
However, if one were to look closely, one would notice that his hands were tightly clenched into fists, and the veins on the back of his hands and wrists were protruding. His sharp eyes revealed a serious and careful look.
In his heart, he couldn’t help but feel very nervous and even more uneasy.
He had never felt fear before.
When he was three years old, he was locked up in a small black room with rats running around. He didn’t know what fear was.
After the death of his nanny at the age of six, he fled from Duke Zhengguo’s mansion and wandered outside. He was hungry and met bad people. All he wanted was to live, but he had never been afraid.
When he entered the battlefield at the age of ten, he faced rivers of blood and mountains of corpses. It was the first time he killed with a big knife. The enemy’s blood gushed out, dripped on his blade, sprinkled on his face, and blinded his eyes. When there was only blood in front of him, he did not show any weakness.
After becoming a general at the age of eighteen, he fell for the enemy’s trap on the battlefield and was surrounded by the enemy. When defeat seemed to be a foregone conclusion, he was unusually calm and analyzed the situation that was most advantageous to him.
At the age of 24, he was poisoned by someone close to him. The poison had already attacked his heart, and he was about to face death. He had never been afraid, only the regret of letting his brothers down.
He had never felt any fear or cowardice in all the things that had happened 25 years ago.
But now, facing a child who was not even as tall as his shoulders, with fair skin and a beautiful face that had not yet fully developed, he was really nervous and scared for the first time.
He didn’t know if he was afraid of Lin yuelan’s rejection or if he was even more afraid that they might not even be friends in the end.
However, since he had made up his mind to fight for a chance for his warmth and happiness, he would not allow himself to retreat, even if he was afraid.
When Lin yuelan heard Jiang Zhennan’s words, she was stunned at first. T
hen her little face blushed slightly for no reason. It was not known whether it was from anger or embarrassment, but there was also a feeling of waves in her heart.
However, Lin yuelan reacted quickly. She collected her thoughts and regained her composure, wanting to speak.
In the end, Jiang Zhennan’s clenched fists tightened. He did not wait for Lin yuelan to reject him and said with a fluctuating voice, ” Yue ‘er, don’t be in a hurry to reject me. Let me finish first, okay?”
Lin yuelan was stunned for a moment. Then, she nodded and said, ” okay!”
Jiang Zhennan said very seriously, ” I’m old and disfigured before. I’m a jinx, but you’re young, beautiful, and capable. Just from this, I know that I’m not worthy of you. Anyone who sees this will say that I, Jiang Zhennan, am not worthy of you, Lin yuelan.
“However, even though I know this, I don’t want to give up at all! I want to fight for my own happiness.
“Yue ‘er, the first time I met you, you gave me the same feeling. It was just that, at that time, I didn’t know what those feelings were. Then, I slowly let myself forget about it.
“However, the second time we met, I was on the verge of death. You were wearing light green clothes, like a little fairy. When you descended from the sky and appeared in front of me again, my heart was truly, truly shocked.
“Later on, as we slowly got to know each other, I was deeply attracted to your every move, every glance, and every smile.
“However, I know very well that I’m not worthy of you, and I might even harm you.
“So, on the one hand, I’m deeply attracted to you, and my feelings for you are getting deeper and deeper. On the other hand, I have to ruthlessly push you away because I can’t harm you.
“However, only now do I know that when it comes to matters of the heart, logic doesn’t have the final say. It comes from the depths of the heart and spurts out like lava, and no one can stop it.
“In the days when I left the Lin family Village, when you were no longer around me, I was tormented by my longing!
“When I decided to come and find you again, I made up my mind. No matter how old I am, no matter the result, and no matter my identity or background, I just want to give myself a chance to fight for it.
“I don’t want to have any regrets in my life.
“So, I’ve decided to tell you how I feel.
“Yue ‘er, I swear that I will really treat you well!
“In this life, I will only have you as my wife. There will be no concubines and no other women. I just want to love you and protect you.
“As long as you give me a chance!”
Lin yuelan, “…”
With Jiang Zhennan’s cold personality, this was probably the longest sentence that Jiang Zhennan had said since he was born.
Yet, he was using these words to confess to her.
Lin yuelan found it funny when she thought about it.
However, when she thought about how she was the one being confessed to, she could not smile anymore.
Jiang Zhennan’s eyes were tightly and seriously staring at her with persistence and affection. He did not even blink, as if he was afraid of missing the answer Lin yuelan gave him.
Lin yuelan didn’t immediately respond to Jiang Zhennan. The expression on her face was serious. She only stared at Jiang Zhennan with her sharp and shrewd eyes as if she wanted to see a trace of falseness in his eyes and then use her words to end him.
However, Lin yuelan didn’t see any pretense or guilt.
What she saw was a mixture of seriousness, persistence, affection, nervousness, fear, and all kinds of other expressions. For a moment, she was at a loss.
She didn’t know what to do.
However, she could now think of the little things that had happened when she was with Jiang Zhennan, from the first time she was discovered by Jiang Zhennan while hiding in the big tree to the time when they held hands and ran into a big tiger in the mountains.
From the second time, under Liefeng’s sincere request, she saved him in the deep mountains, to later, the two of them traveled together many times, talking about the future.
After that, he left the Lin family Village.
When he heard that she was in Qingfeng city, he immediately came to find her because he was afraid that she would be killed by the third Prince. Then, he stayed by her side to protect her until the end of the year, when they went back to their own homes.
At the same time, Lin yuelan also thought of the embarrassing incident where Jiang Zhennan had repeatedly thrown her to the ground.
She knew that he did not throw her away on purpose.
He was just afraid.
He was afraid that his contact with her would cause his jinx to harm her.
However, he was conflicted.
He wanted to have a deeper connection with her.
In the process of pushing and touching, he was deeply tormented and in pain.
Lin yuelan knew all of this.
She didn’t dislike Jiang Zhennan.
In terms of age, according to her real age, she was not younger than Jiang Zhennan. In fact, she was a few years older than him. Therefore, if she really wanted to find a man, she would never find a man who was the same age as her host. It would make her feel so weird. She could not bring herself to bear with such a young husband.
Therefore, if she were looking for a man, she would definitely find one who was older than her host, who was mature, strong, and looked very secure.
Whether it was in terms of age or character, Jiang Zhennan was in line with her requirements.
Therefore, in terms of age and character, Lin yuelan didn’t feel any difference from Jiang Zhennan.
However, she was born from killing and eating people. She had no family, friendship, or love. She had only killed and lived in the apocalypse, so she was indifferent to feelings.
Moreover, she had been betrayed by her lover and best friend in her previous life, causing her to suffer.
After she had transmigrated, she told herself that she didn’t want to believe in love anymore.
She didn’t want to believe the man’s words.
However, she did not know what to do in the face of Jiang Zhennan’s confession.
What kind of person would Jiang Zhennan be?
In fact, one could tell from the way he treated his brothers and subordinates.
He was affectionate and righteous.
Normally, Jiang Zhennan was not a man with a glib tongue.
He had always been a man of few words!
He always meant what he said and was very strict with himself.
To be honest, if she were to get married in this era, Jiang Zhennan would be the most suitable!
But …