Chapter 2118 - Do You Want to Recover Your Memories?
Chapter 2118: Do You Want to Recover Your Memories?
“Of course I’m happy,” Shen Manting replied without thinking twice. She reached out to carry Baby in her arms.
Shen Manting said this without any hesitation.
However, Shen Luo’an instantly fell silent.
Shen Manting did not seem to notice his unusual reaction. “Why did you ask?” she said.
Shen Luo’an looked at her and opened his mouth, but he quickly stopped himself from saying anything further.
Shen Manting found this slightly odd and asked, “Dear, what’s up with you today?”
Shen Luo’an looked at her and thought for a long time before he asked with great difficulty, “Do you want to recover your past memories?”
Shen Luo’an’s voice was slightly low, for he was being very cautious. It was extremely evident that this simple question was very carefully planned.
Shen Manting found his actions and words rather strange, and she subconsciously looked up at him to see his facial expression.
Shen Luo’an was almost expressionless at that very moment. However, she could vaguely sense that he was withholding something so deep that it could not be properly put into words.
This message was not something that Shen Manting could properly comprehend, and she was fairly confused.
However, she could also sense his hesitation, so she was unsure whether she should probe further.
After some thought, she said, “I still think that it would be better to recover my memories. After all, we were also a married couple in the past, yet I have no idea what our lives were like. If I recovered my memories, my life would probably feel slightly more complete. What do you think, my dear?”
Yes. Shen Luo’an thought so as well.
“I feel that I’m missing out on a lot of memories since I’ve forgotten everything that happened from when I was 12 to 31. This change is far too sudden for me to handle,” said Shen Manting as she pouted her lips. Carrying the child in her arms, she began to look through the drawer for his clothes as she continued, “It’s been 19 years. Many things must have happened during these 19 years. If I do not ever remember anything and my memories stay the same, my heart will feel very empty.”
Shen Manting busied herself with sifting through the drawer and did not look back at Shen Luo’an.
Shen Luo’an felt slightly depressed as he watched her after hearing what she had just said.
“What if the things that you recall are unhappy incidents?” Shen Luo’an asked in a slightly raspy voice. He then walked up to her slowly and said, “If you’re about to recall things that will only bring you unhappiness and pain, would you still be willing to recover your memories?”
“How could that be?” Shen Manting replied. She then laughed and said, “But those are part of my memory as well. Even if it causes me pain and unhappiness, those are still my memories. I’ll continue to feel incomplete if I don’t ever remember them. I still feel like I am a 12-year-old even though you say that I’m already 31 years old. Yes, although I feel very happy right now, I still think that I’m far too naive at times and I don’t like to feel this way.”
She did not feel like a mother even though she was carrying her own son and knew that the child was indeed hers.
Shen Manting did not feel any emotional attachment to him. It was merely a fact for her although the child was addressing her as his mommy.
Even if she were to leave right then, she would not feel an unbreakable mother and child bond like what was depicted in television dramas.
“Besides, it’s 19 years worth of memories. I am certain that many important things would have happened during these 19 years, events that made me happy and unhappy, just like everyone else. Why shouldn’t I recover my memories?”
By this point, Shen Manting had found the clothes for her child. She held onto them and turned around, only to realize that Shen Luo’an was watching her intently.
She could not read the expression in his eyes.
There was a myriad of emotions in them. However, it was fleeting, for he had been able to suppress it quickly, making it hard for her to read.