Chapter 501
501 a little self-doubt
Shi Yan knew Jiang che so well that she knew he was asking this on purpose.
her heart softened, and at the same time, she felt a little helpless. the emotions that had risen from shi boran’s words just now had dissipated.
Shi poran didn’t drink his tea. He looked up at Jiang che.
“I won’t disturb you.”
“it’s good that you’re not disturbing me.” jiang che nodded and sat quietly at the side, very gentle and polite.
The hand hidden under the curtain on the electric stove and table held Shi Yan’s hand, gently pinching her slender fingers and playing with them.
Shi poran didn’t seem to care if there were other people present. He continued the previous topic and said to Shi Yan,”I’m here to take you home for the new year.”
jiang che’s hand, which was playing with shi yan’s fingers, paused.
He knew it!
However, he only paused for a moment and quickly returned to normal.
he was not very willing to be disturbed while they were having a good time together, but he would not influence miss shi’s decision. he would accompany miss shi wherever she wanted to spend the new year.
“I won’t be returning this year. I just bought a lot of new year goods. It would be a waste if I don’t spend the new year here.”
The waste was just an excuse. If she was willing to return, she had many ways to make these good New Year goods not be wasted.
hearing the rejection in her words, shi poran tightly pursed his lower lip.
He was silent for a long time.
seeing this, song yu took a big gulp of tea. his eyes kept turning, looking at this and that. then, he coughed and said, ” “shi yan, what’s the point of you two spending the new year together? let’s go back to the capital together. it’ll be more lively with more people.”
song yu was obviously trying to smooth things over, so no one blamed her for interrupting.
“I won’t be back this year,” Shi Yan said with a smile.
” but, but this year is the first new year since brother shi became the head of the household. he arranged many things. aren’t you going back to support him? ”
In the Shi family, there was no such thing as a backer. The interpersonal relationships in the Shi family were not complicated, and there were not so many power struggles. since shi boran had the ability to gather the scattered power in his hands bit by bit, the others naturally believed in him.
“I won’t be back this year,” Shi Yan said with a smile.
Song Yu,”hehe.”
she felt that she was a eloquent person, but why was it that she could not bring out her eloquence when facing the shi siblings?
he was a little discouraged.
“If you’re not coming back this year, do you mean you’ll come back next year?” shi poran looked at her and asked.
Shi Yan fell silent and did not answer immediately.
seeing shi poran’s expression change, he finally reacted and smiled, ” we’ll talk about next year’s matters next year. big brother, even if you want me to make a decision now, i can’t do it. many times, plans can’t keep up with changes. ”
“you don’t have to come back during the new year. you’ll be able to spare a day or two next year. you can come back at any time. you should be able to make the decision, right?”
shi yan was silent.
Shi poran placed the teacup in front of him. The movement was so loud that Song Yu, who was beside him, jumped. He was probably afraid that the situation would get worse, so he quickly pulled Shi Boran’s sleeve.
Seeing this, Jiang Che’s gentle face darkened.
however, he still held back and did not speak.
” in the past, i couldn’t control you when you wanted to leave home and didn’t want to come back. i didn’t have the ability to control you back then. now that i’m in charge of the family, you still don’t want to come back. do you not want to acknowledge this family or do you not want to acknowledge me as your big brother? ”
“Or are you blaming me for not being able to protect you back then?”
“no.” Shi Yan said hurriedly.
The hand that was originally held by Jiang che turned into her hand that was holding his. Jiang che could clearly feel the change in her mood.
“Big brother, I’ve never blamed you. Don’t say such things again. if … if i have to go back to the shi family to prove that i have never blamed you, then i’ll …”
with a “bang,” the sound of the door being knocked open interrupted her.
The person who walked in kicked the suitcase aside and leaned against the door, smiling at them. “Yo, what are you talking about?”
“Young master Shi, isn’t it inappropriate to force my sister in such a way?” he turned to look at Shi poran.
it was su chen.
shi poran wasn’t affected by su chen’s actions. instead, he frowned when he heard the words “my sister.” doctor su, it’s not appropriate for you to call her ‘my sister’. I’m her real brother.
“brother?” su chen was surprised. an elder brother wouldn’t force his own sister like this.”
“if he wasn’t my real brother, i wouldn’t have said those words.”
shi poran glanced at shi yan. ” she’s just like everyone else. she’s so secretive about her past. with her temper, i’m afraid she’ll never step into the shi family again! ”
“other people can let her have her way, but i won’t! she had so many family members, but she lived as if she was the only one in the world. she had no one to rely on and could only rely on herself for everything. I don’t know how he developed such a bad temper!”
“nine years ago, i didn’t have the ability to protect you and neglected to take care of you. i admit that i wasn’t qualified to be your big brother. but shi yan, are you not in the wrong?”
“what’s there that you can’t say openly? why are you keeping everything in your heart and carrying it on your own? You didn’t even tell us when something happened and just left when we weren’t at home. Have you ever thought about how much self-blame the people at home would feel?”
have you ever treated us as your family and me as your big brother, even for a moment? ”
“there is, zhenzhen”
“there is? if you really treat us as family, we won’t be like you. To be honest, other than the marriage that I set for you nine years ago, who else in the family has done you wrong?”
“Alright, it’s true that the elders in the family have let you down regarding the engagement, but what about us? have your second brother, third brother, and i ever let you down? I only need to wait for two more hours and I’ll be home. Why can’t you wait a little longer?”
” you left so easily. you didn’t want us just because your parents and brother said so. do you really treat us as family? ”
How could she not treat them as family?
but shi boran’s words made shi yan doubt herself.
Their expressions changed unconsciously.
seeing this, jiang che could no longer sit still and listen.
“young master shi, you can’t say that.” his tone was calm and slightly cold.
“you said that miss shi doesn’t treat you as family. i’m sorry, but i don’t agree with that. i’ve seen miss shi’s attitude towards outsiders, but she doesn’t treat them like that.”
“It’s wrong for miss Shi to not like to rely on others, but is it natural for her to have this kind of thinking? I don’t think so.”
“for her to have such thoughts and form such a personality that doesn’t like to rely on others, it can only be due to the influence of the people around her.”
shi yan finally came back to her senses and interrupted him,”that’s enough, jiang che. don’t be a wuss.”
but jiang che stopped her.
He raised his hand and rubbed the back of her head. miss Shi, don’t say anything. I couldn’t control you in the past. But now, you should be clear that you’re under my control. you know, i’m a very protective person.”
“i know you better than you do.”
shi yan fell silent.
Shi poran had never seen her so obedient before, even though she had been very obedient and sensible since she was young and had never refuted anyone.