Chapter 36
I’m Equally Disgusted By You!
In fact, Li Shengxia had anticipated that this would happen someday.
She thought about this the day they signed the marriage contract! She told herself to cooperate with Mo Nianchen’s demands until he grew tired of her. She even did things that would speed up the process! What about him?
He took delight in humiliating her!
Finally, the torment stopped after some time.
At last!
A wave of hysterical, emotional pain filled her body as if she had just been sent to hell! Her heavily damaged heart was numb to pain. A stupefied expression washed over her face.
She resembled a broken porcelain bowl with all the cracks over her face. The vacant look in her eyes made him feel empty.
Having her in his life rendered him helpless. He felt insignificant in her eyes no matter how he treated her!
It did not matter if he behaved terribly toward her like a devil or treated her with gentle kindness like an angel. The woman could not be bothered!
It was as if any random person was more significant to her than him! Whereas everything he did to her only brought upon immense detest!
Initially, Mo Nianchen thought Li Shengxia was only something of little value to him. Unexpectedly, she turned out to be a rib that, when removed, though it would not kill him, would leave behind unbearable pain. The ache was so excruciating that he exhausted every method to bring her back to him again. In spite of that, her return did not stop the ache but aggravated it, suffocating him every second of every day!
He had fallen in love with this suffocating feeling so much that he would rather drown in it along with her, never to be awakened!
Each cell in her body was screaming, ‘I hate you! I hate you! I’ll hate you forever! I’ll hate you for the rest of my life!’
No matter what he did, the result would always be the same!
Mo Nianchen clenched his fists in anger and punched the mirror above the sink. “Bang!” Immediately, the mirror cracked into the shape of an artfully crafted spider web. His old wound, which had not healed completely, opened up once again. His fresh red blood appeared exceptionally blinding under the illumination of the light.
She gaped at him in silence as if failing to recover from the shock.
His demonic voice rang next to her ears.
“Li Shengxia, do you hate me that much?
“Do I disgust you so much?
“That you’re so reluctant to be with me?”
Her eyes widened in terror as the blood dripped onto her. She was shaking visibly as the words escaped her lips in a near-whisper. “Blood… You’re bleeding…”
Her voice was quivering as she was seized by terror. She did not register what he was saying at all.
The man glanced at her indifferently. She had not mentioned anything about the bandage he had around his palm for the entire day. Was it only now that she realized he was injured?
He had always felt invisible in front of her! He tried every method to make himself seen but all he received in return was neglect and disgust! He has had enough!
There were plenty more fish in the sea, but why the f*ck did he feel so attached to her!!
“I…”
“Don’t touch me!” He pushed her away before she could finish speaking.
Still shivering, Li Shengxia failed to regain her composure. Upon seeing the man in this state, she felt as if her entire world was crumbling down.
She was reminded of that love letter she gave him when she was seventeen. Back then, he had also invaded her whole world like a devil, although his occasional kindness had fooled her into thinking he was an angel, thus luring her into his trap. What she received in return was an endless cycle of suffering!
He was the one that delivered the final blow!
By tearing the love letter she gave him and arrogantly telling her to forget about the incident so he could still keep her around his side!
What gave him that right? Why did he think he could destroy her life, passing through whenever he desired? Did he think she could not like another man? That she had to cling on to him like a spineless coward?
However…
She had no choice!
She would not make the same mistake if she had the choice. It would be better if they had never crossed paths!
Li Shengxia was confused upon seeing the icy-look on his face. Who was the one that had been hurt? Who was the one who had been dumped? Who was the one that had been played with? It was her!
What else had he done apart from playing the role of a torturer? Why was he looking at her as if she was the one who broke his heart?
She balled her fists as she said coldly. “Yes, I hate you and I hate your touch! I think you’re disgusting and I don’t want to do anything with you at all! But do I have the choice?!”
For reasons that she did not know, she felt a piercing pain stabbing her heart as she yelled those words. However, there was nothing she could do about the pain but feel it spread and erode her entire heart.
Her heart was trying to remind her of something.
No, what she had just said was not true!
She did not hate him and she was not reluctant to be with him. She just could not forget about the past they used to share!
He played her like a toy and cast her aside after he was done. Therefore, she told herself to forget him and stay away from him, as far as she could.
However, she could not do that…
She knew that he was bleeding but how could she –
“Haha.” Mo Nianchen sneered. That sound made her heart ached although she had no idea why.
As it turned out, she had been an unwilling participant this whole time! He thought that he might have moved her after all the effort he had put in, but it seemed all he did was indulge in his wild fantasy!
“Then hate me as you wish! Hate me with each and every cell in your body!”
The woman stared blankly at him as the throbbing pain in her heart became worse.
“Because I’m equally disgusted by you!”
Her face went pale within seconds, the pain was so intense it was unbearable. The word disgust kept ringing in her ears.
He added on, “But I really want to see the misery on your face. It’s a shame I didn’t catch it again this time.”
She started shaking again. The man was like the evilest demon to exist in the entire universe; he would not surrender until she shattered into pieces.
“But don’t worry, there’ll be plenty of chances. You better not fall in love with me. Otherwise, I’ll definitely dig it out, throw it onto the ground, and smash it so bad you could never piece it back together!” His voice was one laced with cruelty.
Even her teeth began to chatter now. Did he really despise her that much? To the extent that he had to offend her all the time?
She tried her best to be calm. “Don’t worry, I’ll not be that dumb again!”