Chapter 321 - Chapter 321: Alright, I’ll Wait for You for as long as I Can
Chapter 321: Alright, I’ll Wait for You for as long as I Can
Translator: 549690339
“I’ve been trying, I’ve been working hard. I want to forget him, but I can’t. I don’t know what to do. I keep thinking, if only I met you from the beginning, if only the person I fell in love with from the beginning was you. That way, there wouldn’t be so many painful things. That way… Everything will be different.”
Tan Qing said gently,” Silly girl, what’s there to be disappointed about? If I like you, I like you. If I don’t like you, I don’t like you. It’s not your fault that I didn’t meet you before you fell in love with someone else. It’s my fault for being too late.” You don’t have to force yourself to accept me. I’m good to you because I
want to be good to you, not because I want you to accept me. Do you know?”
“Tan Qing, I watched a movie today. There was a line in the movie today. The girl asked the boy why he treated her so well. The boy said that it was because he loved her. The girl asked. Wasn’t love when two people were in love? The boy said…”
“What?”
“Falling in love is very difficult. It’s more like you and me.”
Li Shengxia’s tears were still flowing.” I thought about how I fell in love with MO Nianchen. It was one-sided. You’ve been so good to me, but I’ve been letting you down. I know that love is hard. I know I might never meet someone in my life. I know you deserve a better girl, but if you’re willing to wait for me…”
“I want to try to respond to you. I want to try and see if we can be happy.
Although falling in love was difficult, if you loved me, at least I could try to like you.”
“Actually, I like you. I’ve always liked you. Otherwise, I wouldn’t have told you so much about me, but… However, that kind of liking was always a little lacking…lt couldn’t reach love. It was good, but it wasn’t love.”
“I know. Stop crying.” Tan Qing rubbed her head.” Silly girl, I didn’t ask you to respond to me. I never expected that we would fall in love, as long as you let me continue to love you. It didn’t matter whether it was love or not.”
Li Shengxia shook her head vigorously.” It’s not like that. A person should not lose everything after sacrificing so much for another person. I should have rejected you earlier. I should have rejected you earlier. I should have refused to let you help me or tell you anything about me. I should have stayed far away from you so that you wouldn’t think that you had any chance. However, I couldn’t reject you. I was the one who bound your life…l’m the one who made you become like this…”
“There’s no such thing as shouldn’t or shouldn’t. Shengxia, don’t blame yourself. It’s not your fault that you can’t accept me. You rejected me long ago. I
was the one who insisted on staying. I did all of this willingly. I told you, you don’t have to accept me. You just have to let me continue to guard you like this.
Did you know? Don’t cry.”
“Tan Qing, can you not always be like this? You can scold me occasionally.”
“You’re so cute. How could I bear to scold you?”
It’s because you’re like this, because you’re too good. You never give me any burden, you never give me any harm. All I can get from you is beauty, so I don’t feel that you’re important.
Because the hurt is the deepest, but you are never willing to hurt me.
Tan Qing, you’re so good. I’m too cheap. I was the one who insisted on liking
MO Nianchen. I was the one who insisted on holding onto the feeling of being covered in bruises. I was the one who kept thinking about the past. I deserved everything.
“Tan Qing, can you wait for me?”
“What?”
“Give me a little time, let me be myself again, let me try to like you.”
“Don’t force yourself.”
“It’s not that I’m forcing myself. I want to like you. I know it might take some time, but let me try, okay?” “Are you telling the truth?”
“Yes.”
“Alright, I’ll wait for you as long as you want.” Tan Qing wiped her tears again.”
You can stop crying now, right?’”‘
‘Yes.”
“Shengxia, I’ve imagined a thousand ways to confess to you, but I never thought that you would be the one to say such words first. Although I feel a little regretful, I’m very happy. You know my feelings and are willing to try to accept me. No matter what the outcome is, I’m very happy.”
I should be the one thanking you, Tan Qing. I’m afraid that I won’t be able to do it in the end.
Even if that was the case, you would still say, ‘Don’t force yourself, Shengxia, follow your heart’s decision.’
I don’t want to hurt you, Tan Qing… I really want to try to like you. Please, let me like you.
“So, where do you plan to stay tonight?”Tan Qing adjusted her mood and started the engine again.
“I’ll go to your house to see Yi Chen and Lemon.”
“Alright.”
Tan family.
Tan Qing had been living alone in the courtyard and did not live with her family. Other than the butler and a few necessary servants, there was no one else in the house.
It was already midnight, and the two children went to bed early.
Xia Yichen did not look any different when he was asleep and when he was awake. He still looked like a little adult. Li Shengxia could not help but feel ashamed. He was right. Sometimes, she was more like a child compared to him. Perhaps it was because he had never had a father since he was young that Xia Yichen matured very early. He took on many responsibilities that he shouldn’t have but he never complained.
Li Shengxia could not help but laugh when she saw Xia Lemon hugging a pile of snacks while sleeping. She really did not know who this little glutton looked like. However, it was also because she was so cute that these five years were not so hard.
Li Shengxia looked at the two kids and felt that everything was worth it for them.
Li Shengxia sat by the bed and held her chin as she muttered to herself,” Yichen, Lemon, if you could have a daddy, what would you want him to be like?””
“Although you guys have never told me, you actually yearn for a father, right?”
“When Mommy was young, my mother left me very early. I also yearned for my mother very much and didn’t dare to tell my father. However, I knew that this kind of incompleteness would be filled with anticipation one day.”
“But Mommy can’t give it to your father.”
“Uncle Tan is very good. You guys like him very much, and he likes you guys very much. If we become a family, you guys will definitely be very happy. Will you accept him?”
“Mommy…” Xia Yichen suddenly opened his eyes.
Li Shengxia was shocked.” You…” Why are you awake?”
“I haven’t been sleeping.” “Mommy, what about you? Do you like Uncle Tan?” Xia Yichen asked.”
This was the second time Li Shengxia had asked him this question today. He felt that he needed to have a serious conversation with her.