Chapter 202: 79:
Chapter 202: 79:
"We met for a reason, either you're a blessing or a lesson."
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Heaven tried to rest after Zamiel left her, but she was tense and kept turning back and forth in bed. She threw the blankets off of her body and hoped to relax and fall asleep. But as soon as she closed her eyes, she remembered Zamiel's body against hers, his lips on her neck, his fangs in her flesh, and she was restless and hot all over again.
Shutting her eyes tightly with a groan, she tried to push those images to the back of her mind, but to no avail. It was impossible to make her brain forget when her body remembered every touch and every kiss so clearly.
After a lot of groans and rolling in bed, there was a knock on the door. Her mother peeked inside and walked in when she found her awake.
"You haven't slept yet." Her mother pointed.
Heaven sat up, completely flustered and frustrated. Her mother held a tray with a lid in her hands. She went and placed it on the table in the middle of the room before looking at her.
"I brought you some food in case you are hungry." She said. Then she tilted her head, and a frown settled between her brows. "Is something bothering you?"
Heaven shook her head. "No, mother. It is just taking time to sleep." She said.
Her mother came and sat next to her. She removed a few strands of her hair from her face and smiled gently while cupping her cheek. "Don't think too much. Everything is going to be alright. You just make sure to rest and eat well. You can't fight if your body is weak."
Heaven nodded. "I will."
"Alright then, I'll leave you alone." She rubbed her shoulder before standing up and leaving.
Falling back on bed, Heaven decided to try to sleep again since she had no appetite. Curling in bed, she shut her eyes.
Don't think. Don't think. She chanted. And then she cursed when she failed. It was his scent. It still lingered in her room, reminding her of the things she wanted to forget.
Getting out of bed, she decided to eat. What better way to distract herself than with food. She sat at the tabled and removed the lid from the tray. Rise, chicken, and vegetables were served on a plate. There was soup in a bowl and then bread at the side. Heaven picked up her spoon and tasted the soup. God, she was full after all the food she stuffed into her belly at Zamiel's house. She didn't feel like eating. The butterflies swirling in her stomach didn't make it easier either.
She forced herself to eat a little, hoping it would distract her, but it was pointless so she went back to bed. After a lot of struggle to sleep, she heard a loud thunder outside followed by rain that poured down heavily.
Turning back, Heaven looked outside the window. It was raining a lot. Almost as if the heavens were having mercy on her. Heaven pushed herself out of bed and went to open the door to her garden. She looked outside, at how the rain fell over her garden, listened to the sound of it and the smell.
Oh, it reminded her of Zamiel. She missed him already.
Without thinking, she stepped outside under the rain. She shivered as the cold drops of water fell on her burning skin, easing the heat that had made her restless.
How long had it been since she walked outside when it rained? It felt like forever since the last time. When she was little, she used to sneak out when it rained and let herself get drenched. Lydia and Ylva would be worried and try to get her inside.
"You will get ill, Your Highness." They would say.
And then at some point she had just stopped. She became obedient, leaving behind the rebellious girl she used to be. No more running around in the castle, or hiding, or fighting with Zarin, or dressing like a boy. No more playing around under the rain.
Heaven looked up at the sky, holding her hands out at the sides of her body. Letting the rain fall over her, washing her worries away, cooling her heat and bringing forth joy. She felt like a little girl again. The girl she used to be, where she listened to her brain less and followed her heart more. It wasn't necessarily a good thing to do, but it made her happy. And now her heart longed for Zamiel.
Before she knew, she found herself outside his home. Water splashed under her feet and she realized she had stepped on a puddle as she arrived. She used to love playing in puddles when it rained. Tossing her shoes aside, she flicked the cold water with her feet. She was completely wet, cold and playing with water like a little girl. She giggled at her silly behavior, but then her hand flew to her mouth.
What was she doing? She had come here to...to…
Her body that had turned cold under the rain suddenly grew hot and her cheeks burned. She remembered Zamiel's words. "Heaven, I am a man. And you are a woman."
Her heart raced as she looked over at his mansion. The voice inside of her told her to be bold and walk inside, but her heart was jumping out of her chest. She knew what happened between a man and a woman. Gina had told her stories. And Zamiel's eyes had looked at her in a way that made her heart cease to beat before he left her alone. There was no denying he wanted her. Badly.
Losing her courage, she decided to go back home. She slid her foot into one shoe, but then she heard her name.
"Heaven."
Oh Lord. Have mercy on me.
She put her other shoe on quickly and turned to him.
He stood at the terrace with a roof above his head that covered him from the rain. "What are you doing?" He asked.
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