Chapter 39.1: What I Lack, I Will Take From Heaven Part 1
After his wonderful rest last night, Wang Wei woke up full of vitality and spirit. He had no nightmare, no haunting dreams of the people he had killed: he just slept peacefully.
After waking up, Wang Wei started to ponder about the past seven days.
He asked himself: "Why is killing so wrong? Why was such a strong aversion to killing deeply ingrained into himself?"
To Wang Wei, such a strong ethical concept of right and wrong was not in tune with his way of free and unfettered.
How can someone who aspires to reach the highest state of absolute freedom be restrained by societal constraints or shackles such as not killing people?
To Wang Wei, the idea of not killing was actually ingrained in him by modern society as a way to better control the masses.
Throughout the history of Earth, the act of killing was actually quite the normal act. Whether it was our ancestor who did it as a way to survive the wild or even throughout the Celestial Dynasty’s history, killing was a way for people to not only defend themselves, but to display their superior status.
It was only during modern eras that killing was declared wrong. Then, the government used education and law to morally and spiritually restrain the people and made them believe that killing was wrong.
As a person who aspired to be free and unfettered, Wang Wei should never be restrained, he should never have any shackles on him--especially on his mind, on his way of thinking. The only shackles he should have are the ones he willingly placed on himself.
After figuring this out, Wang Wei suddenly heard something break from his mind, and he felt his thinking more visible and clear; he felt that his soul was sublimated and his thinking even more active then it was before.
Many things he did not understand became more clear. The many fears and indecisive thoughts he had became apparent to him: he knew where these thoughts came from and could control them.
In simple words, Wang Wei had a better understanding of himself and could better control his emotions and his mind.
After his sublimation, all his fears and dread about killing were gone; he had become more decisive when doing things from now on.
Wang Wei knew that from this moment on, he would never have any more nightmares. He had taken one more step closer to his goal of being free and unfettered.
After lifting the shackle of his mind, Wang Wei immediately realized that his previous state was quite wrong.
His reaction against killing was too strong. Although as a modern man, he would be averse to killing, the situation should not reach the point of having nightmares for seven consecutive days.
His adaptability should be quite strong--especially after experiencing so much in the Pagoda Trials.
His situation reminds him of people who faced Heart Tribulations or Heart Demons. However, such things as Heart tribulation usually occurred to cultivators of the Primordial Spirit Realm. How can it happen to a mortal like him. Well, things seemed to be not so simple.
Wang Wei took a note of what happened and hoped to find the answer in the library later on when he has time. Now, he had more important things to do.
After his breakthrough in his state of mind, Wang Wei got up from the bed and had a maid prepare everything for his morning routine.
Afterward, he called his head maid Wang Ju into the room.
When Wang Ju walked into the room, he saw the Young Master sitting cross-legged on a futon.
Immediately, Wang Ju noticed something different about the Young Master. In the past week, Wang Ju had noticed that the state of the Young Master was wrong; he always had heavy bags under his eyelids which indicate his lack of sleep.
Wang Ju wanted to know what had happened in order to help, but he was warned by the Sect Madam not to intervene in this matter. As such, she did as she was told without question.
However, today, Wang Ju noticed that there were no heavy bags under the Young Master’s eyelids. Of course, that was not the most significant change or difference.
In the eyes of the Young master, she noticed a coldness, indifference, and decisiveness that was not there before. She was shocked by this discovery because the Young Master had changed so much in such a short period of time.
In fact, in normal circumstances, it was very difficult for Wang Ju to notice such a drastic change of temperament from Wang Wei as he was used to hiding his emotions and remaining calm.
However he had just had a change in his state of mind and had not quite adjusted yet. Furthermore, Wang Wei had decided not to always keep a poker face all the time and hide his emotion. This did not fit his philosophy of freedom.
If he wants to show his emotion, then he will show it. There is no need to hide it unless he desired to; he had nothing to hide and nothing to prove to anyone.
After seeing Wang Ju, Wang Wei asked her to report the information from the past seven days. Since he was in a bad state, he had not listened to her during the past week.
After finishing hearing her report and noticing that there was nothing important to take note of, he got down to business.
Wang Wei then said to her:" Wang Ju, you did a good job keeping things in order during my absence in the past few days."
Wang Ju bowed and responded: "Thank You, Young Master. Wang Ju was just doing her jobs properly."
Wang Wei nodded slightly and continued: "Now, it is time to get things in motion. Go to my father and tell him that 3 days later, I’m going to invite Han Li to meet me and accomplish the previous abolished plan."
After saying this, there was a cold and ruthless light that rapidly flashed from Wang Wei’s eyes, then immediately disappeared afterward.
Upon hearing Wang Wei’s word, Wang Ju was shocked and her mouth was opened in O shape.
As someone who was trained to always keep her emotion in check, this was indeed a big change for her.
Wang Ju can be considered one of the people that spend the most time with Wang Wei. As such, she knows a great deal about him.
From his habit to his preferences, from his temperament to his secret action, she knows all about it.
As such, she knows a lot of his secrets--including his secret plan toward the #1 Contemporary Sacred Son, Han Li.
She also knows that the Young Master had shelved or stopped this plan because it could be quite detrimental to Han Li and the Young master did not want to hurt people from the same sect.
However now, the Young Master had changed his mind and decided to go on with this plan. How would she not be shocked?
As a person who deals with information, she was used to creating profiles for people she met and distinguishing their habits and temperament in order to determine their actions.
As such, she did the same for the Young Master. Of course it was not to anticipate his actions, but to understand him and better serve him.
She was one of the few people who knew that Wang Wei was actually quite the docile and gentle person who did not want to hurt anybody--especially for his own interest.
However now, things seem to have changed.
The Young Master was no longer the gentle person he used to be. Now, he seemed more ruthless and decisive.
"Maybe this was for the best," thought Wang Ju as she left the room and headed toward Tianwei Peak to meet the Sect Master and delivered the message.