Chapter 478 Selfish
The gazebo almost looked like it was wrapped with pink blossoms floating on air.
"Beauty, say ahh." Hinari was trying to feed Zaki as she grinned widely. The man, on the other hand, never stopped blushing because of all these crazy antics Hinari was doing. His poor heart was already beating abnormally and yet she kept on jolting it, creating sweet chaos inside him with everything she did. What was worse was that, Zaki couldn’t say ’no’ to her now.
He obediently opened his mouth and let her feed him. He was embarrassed but he felt he couldn’t do anything about it. Somehow, Zaki just felt that from this point on, his heart wasn’t the only one that completely surrendered to her. It seemed like even his soul wasn’t just his anymore, but also hers.
After their ever so romantic dinner, Zaki finally stood up. He stretched out his hand towards Hinari and she immediately took it without a second of delay. She was smiling at him but she looked like she was doing her best to suppress herself from jumping on him, hugging him and kissing him hard.
’Good, my little pervert. Suppress yourself a bit longer. This will be over soon.’ Zaki whispered to himself as he too smiled, as he led Hinari out of the gazebo.
When the two were already standing on the circle part of the pathway, Zaki turned to her and he gazed into her eyes. Hinari’s eyes were shining brightly. It was as if they were stars themselves.
Looking at her, Zaki felt his heart convulsing. This was it. This was the moment he could finally speak from his heart completely without any more reservation.
"Hinari," he started by saying her name in such beautiful way, almost as if he was chanting a sacred name. His deep and gentle voice was like honey flowing through Hinari’s blood.
Zaki began telling her his story. Who he really was and the things he had done. He told her everything from how he was brought into this world, how Sei brought him out to see the world, how he killed countless people like a machine, and how he met his new family.
"Even if you already know this, I still want to say it... I’m sorry, but I won’t live for long. This was the reason why I kept distancing myself from you. I didn’t want you get hurt. All I wanted was for you to be happy, but in the end, I still hurt you so badly. I’m sorry." Zaki was no longer looking at her. He lowered his head so that his gaze was on their intertwined hands, as he gripped them tightly.
"It is also not safe to be around me, right now. Many dangerous organizations have their eyes set on me, desperately wanting a piece of my body. I believe they want to obtain my DNA since that lab where I was made was completely destroyed during the explosion. They want to make another person like me, perhaps to create a powerful army with my caliber. I have no choice but to stay under Sei’s wings. I am in danger at every moment. This was why I couldn’t take you out normally anymore. Still, despite all this, I will selfishly ask you to stay with me. I..." as those words left his mouth, Zaki raised his face. His eyes were filled with intense emotion, almost welling in tears.
"I... I have chosen to fight because of you. You gave me a reason not to give up. And now, I don’t think I could go on without you. No, I think, I’d crumble into pieces if you’re not here. Forgive me, but I selfishly want you, even though I know you will suffer if you stay with me. I... I need you."