Chapter 191 Unbearable fear
"I love you." Davi finally said as her eyes were burning with intense emotions; honesty, sincerity, loyalty and most of all, love. She only uttered three words, however, those words were all she needed to say.
She poured all her heart with those three words as the ultimate part of her confession. Her heart was beating wildly as ever as she held her breath, waiting for the reaction of the man in front of her.
Davi could tell that her husband was shocked and she can’t help but felt even more nervous when the man just froze in his squatting position while his gaze was locked unto her. His eyes were glimmering, ever so beautiful like an out of this world gem.
Thankfully, after a long while, Sei finally moved. He slowly stood and looked at her eyes. However, that moment, Davi saw another strange emotion glimmering in his eyes. It was as if his surprised expression a moment ago turned unbelievably anxious. And she didn’t know why but she felt as though, her heart was suddenly being twisted because of the seemingly intense forlorn look in his eyes.
At that point of time, Davi wanted to speak and ask him what’s wrong. She wanted to know why he’s suddenly looking at her that way just after she said she loves him. But then, she suddenly turned tongue tied, and she couldn’t speak a single word. At the same time, hesitation enveloped her the moment she began to think that it must be because he’s about to reject her.
Davi subconsciously bit her lip and her grip with the rose in her hand tightened when suddenly, the man in front of her finally talked.
"I..." He started, causing Davi to hold her breath, because his eyes were still emitting a strange feeling that Davi found as a not so good sign.
"If I tell you I’m not a good person... would you still say that you love me?" he continued with such heartbreakingly sad gazes, making Davi’s eyes to slightly widened. It was because that moment, she realized that the sadness in his eyes weren’t because he wanted to reject her. As he looked at him, she just thought that he seemed to be just being anxiously troubled if her feelings would change once she knew who he is. A thought that finally made Davi breath before a sincere smile carved in her face.
"To me, no matter what anyone says, you’re a good person and I will still love you." She then answered sincerely as ever, as she looked back at him with her usual unbreakable determined gazes. Causing Sei to just fell silence for a while, before he continued talking again.
"I’m... I’m a dangerous person, that’s why I’m not showing my face and identity to you." He said and his eyes remained as sad as it was. A look that just kept squeezing Davi’s heart. Causing her to just raise her hand, tiptoed and reached out his hair before she just gently caressed his hair as she talks back with reassuring voice.
"To me, you’re not dangerous at all. But even if you do, I will still love you." She said with serious voice as she smiled.
That moment, hearing her every word, looking at her reassuring smile, and feeling her comforting gentle touches, despite all the words that he was telling her, Sei couldn’t help but felt an inexplicable feeling of warmth he had never felt before. He just felt as though, she really was a real angel that descended from the heavens to save him. He never expected her reactions and answers at all. And he never meant to tell her all these to discourage or test her, he just decided to open up his heart to her despite his extreme fear that she will get scared of him. He just wanted to start opening the door of his hidden self by and by despite the unbearable fear of losing her.