I Just Want to Be in a Relationship

This kiss came without a sign, like a little rose suddenly blossoming on a frozen and snow-covered land, although astounding and unbelievable, but with kind of irresistible temptation.

Yu Qinghuan popped out his eyes, his whole body was like being frozen and couldn’t move a bit.

His heart started to beat faster, like a bouncy rabbit in his chest, which nearly bumped out of his throat.

His face reddened, breath taken away, he tried to push Huo Qu away, but his hands were as soft as the cotton without a bit of strength. He could only let Huo Qu kiss him harder and harder.

Yu Qinghuan felt like time had slowed down as a century had passed. Taking advantage that Huo Qu was taking his breath awkwardly, he finally came to his sense and tilted his head to avoid his incoming lips. He then pushed him away, panting, “Huo…Huo Qu, enough…it’s enough…”

“Qinghuan!” Huo Qu’s beautiful eyes were sparkling, like he had found a new continent. He stared at his lips, beaming, like he was gonna jump on him again the next second.

Yu Qinghuan backed up a step subconsciously, his back leaning tightly against the wall.

At this right moment, his brain had already been a total mess, like a ball of string with no thread end…

Why would Huo Qu kiss him? Is it because of the stimulation of that scene, or something else…

Thinking that kind of possibility, Yu Qinghuan felt that all had turned dark before his eyes. He involuntarily looked ahead. Fang Zhongxi and Evenson had already left, only the two of them left in the parking lot.

The freezing cold wall made him sober a lot. Yu Qinghuan licked his lips and said with difficulty, “Huo Qu, you…you are just doing this out of curiosity, aren’t you?”

It must be like that. He constantly tried to comfort himself in his heart.

Huo Qu had never contacted gays or knew anything about it, so he would be so shocked when he saw two men kissing, so he wanted to have a try. He wouldn’t mean anything else. Yu Qinghuan thought he overreacted.

“No!” Hardly had Yu Qinghuan’s voice faded away, Huo Qu suddenly took a big step forward. Two people, tiptoes against each other, as close as that only lowering his head a bit, Huo Qu could touch Yu Qinghuan’s lips with his.

Yu Qinghuan’s pupils shrunk and he immediately held his breath.

“It’s not I’m not curious.” Huo Qu touched the tip of his nose affectionately, with absolute happiness and excitement in his voice, “Qinghuan, I just like you, so so so much…”

His face totally reddened, eyes brightened, he said ‘so’ three times, even that round little dimple was with some sweetness, which whipped up huge waves in Yu Qinghuan’s heart instantly.

Huo Qu likes him? Since when? Why didn’t he know? Why would such a thing happen?

That kind of burning hot feeling suddenly faded away, instead, guilty, self-condemned, and regretful…all kinds of complicated feelings rose in his head, as strong as that Yu Qinghuan nearly couldn’t hold it.

He clenched his fists, as tightly as he nearly broke his own knuckles.

Huo Qu was as pure as a while paper. He would change to whatever color you painted on it. It should be his own sexual orientation that influenced him unintentionally, so he generated the misconception that it was a normal thing to be gay.

Yu Qinghuan’s heart was cold. He couldn’t help looking up to Huo Qu.

While Huo Qu now was still immersed in the sweetness of his first kiss, and his breaths were kind of hoarse. When he looked into Qinghuan’s eyes, it was only shyness and happiness sparkling in his black and watery eyes.

That kind of feeling was so sincere and intense, which nearly made Yu Qinghuan’s shed tears.

Yu Qinghuan had never been self-contemptuous due to his own sexuality. He was born into men, and aboveboard, which had nothing to do with anyone else.

But Huo Qu was different. He was a very promising scientist who would stand on top of the academic world. He should stand on the podium nobly and decently and be a stainless scientific pioneer. He could never be labeled as a gay to be criticized and made fun of.

“Huo Qu,” Yu Qinghuan took a deep breath and pushed him away, wearing a cold face, “I won’t fuss about it this time, but no next time. Friends should…”

“No!” Before he finished his words, Huo Qu already cut in.

He looked at Yu Qinghuan firmly, “Qinghuan, I already thought it through! I don’t take you as a friend.” His eyelashes quivering, heart pounding fast, he had to stop to take a deep breath every time he finished a sentence, “I like you, I want to be with you for…”

“Shut up!” Yu Qinghuan nearly broke down. He covered his mouth and forbid him continuing his words.

He wanted to tell Huo Qu out loud that he was not gay, he just got affected by him. But when looking into Huo Qu’s eyes, Yu Qinghuan immediately cooled himself down and didn’t know how to open his mouth.

“Huo Qu,” Yu Qinghuan touched his hair and forced a smile, “it’s not like this. You just cherish me as your best friend too much, so you would have some kind of illusion.”

Huo Qu pursed his lips, as if he was about to say something, but Yu Qinghuan didn’t give him the chance. He immediately continued, “You can try to make more friends, men or women. Then you will understand the difference between friends and lovers.”

“But I only want to be with you…” Huo Qu rubbed his palm with his hairy head, and his sound gradually lowered until it was gone.