Card Apprentice Daily Log

Date- 4 April 2321

Time- 12:52

Location- Southern Region, Blossom District, Unknown Location

Jill shared the words her father told her to help her to come to terms with her origin. I am not saying that her father was lying but his words were too good to be true.

Jill’s mother was the sole survivor in the seven trial experiments. I don’t know how many women participated in each trial but even one life lost was too many in my books. But Jill seemed to trust her dad’s words that’s what mattered.

However, I was finding it hard to get around the fact that Jill’s father took a piece of literature found in an ancient vestige so seriously that he successfully created a flawed version of it.

According to sacred Hindu literature, a sage pleased by Kunti’s virtue gave her a spell through which she could invoke any divine being to provide her with a son. I can understand how the story could get morphed in translation but not Jill’s father’s motivation to murder an unknown number of innocent women to replicate what he translated from a few ancient pages. What was surprising was though incomplete and flawed Jill’s father was able to achieve a part of what he started for. And I hope the story he told Jill was true and not some story spun to make her feel good about her origin. This would not be the first time a parent lied to their adopted child to help them feel good about their origin.

“I can tell by your expression that you don’t believe what my father said to me. I will have you know my father took an oath in presence of the world’s will. I know the power of the world’s will can be limited with the clever use of words. That is when I came up with a list of terms and conditions,” Jill addressed the skeptical look on my face.

“Oh, honey, it doesn’t matter what I think,” Considering how practical Jill was since the beginning, I believed she did not care what I thought.

Jill shook her head then peering into my eyes she said, “No, it matters to me. Otherwise, why do you think that I would tell you about my origin?”

“I am flattered but I figured what we had was purely physical,” I said so because I did not want Jill to die. I don’t have a problem with Jill developing feelings for me but I knew a certain someone who might have a problem with that. And she was not good at sharing.

pan-d a-n0vel.com “I know what I said but You have grown on me, I would like our relationship to continue out of this dungeon,” Jill proposed out of nowhere.

“Nope,” I rejected Jill without even giving it a thought. I started the physical relationship with Jill believing that what happens in a dungeon will stay in the dungeon. To be honest, I started this relationship betting on the fact that cold and practical Jill would not get clingy, but she was. Now I was in trouble.

“Is it because you are afraid of my Carnivorous womb~ah?” Jill purposefully sounded playful trying to taunt me.

“I will have you know, I am not afraid of your Car—physique, I have defeated it once I can defeat it again,” Even though I was fully aware Jill was taunting my manhood to achieve her agenda I still chose to come to the defense of my meat shaft.

“Really~ah? As far as I know, you retreated by faking your death~fu,” Jill spoke playfully to make her taunts to be more effective, but she got me with her words as the only way of defeating Jill’s physique was by giving it what it wanted, and I had no plans to do as such because I was having a hard time being responsible for my own life let alone another one so I chose to keep quiet, “…”

“Can I ask why?” seeing me not argue and suspiciously silent Jill understood taunting would not work.

“I honestly don’t have an answer for you but I have two girls waiting for me outside,” saying these words, it hit me. Though I did not have the family I was born with I had a family who accepted me for me. They were the only reason I was going back to Sky Blossom City. As for my plans, I could put them in motion from anywhere in the world. But those two, they were waiting for me back in the sky blossom city.

I, myself, was confused about my relationship with Anna-me and Susan-me. But I knew these were the only two people who would genuinely miss me if something were to happen to me.

I was clear about what Anna wanted from me, she couldn’t be louder. As for Susan, were we just friends, or was there more than what I saw? Whatever it was I did not want to jump to a conclusion as I did not want to risk what we had right now.

Lately, I have been thinking of these things. Was it because of the numerous brush with death? I guess that could be it… A chill life with no one to share with no longer made sense. I was alone back on earth but I don’t want to be alone in this world too however relationships are complicated. I did not think twice when I had to wipe out half of the population of the earth to kill the Viltronian bastard, so why can’t I be decisive about this? Why was I hesitating when it came to this?

Jill looked at the complicated expression as he was lost in thought and knew he had someone in his heart. This realization raised complicated feelings in Jill’s heart. It was not an obsession but an unknown pain, seeing the boy who was decisive enough not to hesitate to trick a card king take so much time to come to a decision about other girls she knew his feelings for them were real.

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An: If you have someone you love, let them know. Maybe they feel the same about you or are open to giving you a shot.

Don’t be a Sansa be an Anna. [This is not any indication of where the novel is heading.]

Don’t wait for timing, it’s never a perfect time, if you want it you will have to make it work. Who knows what will happen tomorrow? Truck-kun can claim them or your soul anytime.