Back Then, I Adored You

She had tried her best to avoid seeing him. She had hidden herself in the car for a long time the afternoon before. She had slept on the wicker chair in the sunroom at night to avoid him. That night, it had poured so badly that no cab would come to pick her up, even though she had tried to call many of them. She didn’t dare to call the Gu Mansion, afraid of him getting mad at her.

No matter what she did, she always seemed to piss him off. After he was enraged, she always ended with having rough sex with him.

There was nothing more unethical than trading sex between men and women. She might be even worse than those women who earned what they wanted through sex. She was just a sex slave for him to unleash his sexual desires. There was no mention of caring about her or having fun with her; he never even showed any respect for her.

She couldn’t help feeling bad for herself. She liked him, had secretly liked him for so many years, which made her feel even worse than before.

If she could, Qin Zhi’ai really didn’t want to show any signs of crying.

However, she had never been able to hold her tears. The more she wanted to control herself, not letting her feelings out, the sorer her eyes felt. The tears fell on her cheeks when she was distracted.

A long time after they had sex, Gu Yusheng recovered from the feelings of relief and felt empty again.

He felt like someone had taken his heart out and everything became a blur.

He stared at the roof, lost in thought for a quite long time, before he realized what he was doing.

He had sex with her again. He wondered what was happening to him that made him lose control so often.

Losing control so frequently made Gu Yusheng worried. He was anxious again at that moment. He wanted to smoke. As he reached his hand out to search for the pack of cigarettes under the pillow, he remembered his cigarettes and cellphone were all in the other room. He was annoyed by this and drew his hand back. He turned around and saw Qin Zhi’ai curled up on the edge of the bed. Her shoulders shuddered. It seemed that she was crying.

Gu Yusheng’s lips trembled and his face tensed up, his lips suddenly stretched to the sides. He stared at her back for quite a long time. He wanted to move his eyes away, but suddenly heard the sobbing she had tried so hard to suppress.

It was like a sharp knife had stabbed into his chest, hard. It gave him an unexpected and sharp pain. The pain made him tense his back muscles. He was irritated and sat up, grabbed her arm, and pulled her off the bed. He took all her clothes on the bed and tossed them at her. “Go home if you want to cry.”

She seemed scared of him and suddenly stopped crying. She shuddered badly on the carpet and sat there for a while before she realized what he meant. She hastily grabbed her clothes and ran to the bathroom.

When he had sex with her, he always seemed to lose control and hurt her. She stumbled and ran to the bathroom.

She quickly got dressed in the bathroom and came out with her head down. She rushed out of the room without looking at him.